I am sorry for neglecting this blog for so many months.
I have this blog now on my to-do list every afternoon for at least a few minutes to get my story out.
So let me remember I can’t remember if it was 2 to 3 months upon return. However, I do remember the hopes in the dreams of the possibility of getting pregnant. Continually taking medicine and trying to get pregnant was beginning to take a toll on our marriage. I was obsessed with my ovulation schedule. No matter how much I knew that Tony wanted a child, I had a great big ache at the fact that I wasn’t for sure I could give him one.
Anyway, I went back to the infertility doctor after three months explaining to him the anguish that the scheduled efforts were having on myself and my husband emotionally. With the doctor’s vast experience in infertility, I was surprised at his indifference to the emotions of the situation.
Tony and I finally made the decision to take a break from “trying “.
During the time off from trying to make a baby, we focused on home. We decided that home was something we were going to bring our child to so it needed to be as prepared as our bodies were in this process. So we repainted a bedroom. We landscaped the front yard. We started attending church on a regular basis. All of these small tasks for our life was more impactful than we realized. You’ll learn more about that later.
OK Back to Making a Baby
After about four months of continually taking the medicine and trying when passion struck, we still had no positive pregnancy test. So we called the fertility specialist to make an appointment. At that appointment, the doctor wanted to increase our medication. He scheduled to see me once a month to make sure that the follicles were consistently opening up.
Many Trips to and from Knoxville
Now with going to Knoxville once a month consistently, I was getting excited. The doctor had great confidence in the fact that we would be able to conceive. Some visits I took my mom and we had to stop at the baby depot and look at all the excess baby products on the market. With her love of children and me being a great aunt, we come up with dream designs for the nursery.
Month after Month
Every single month we drove to Knoxville. Every single month I would have a transvaginal ultrasound. Every single month the medicine was altered. Every single month the follicles opened. However, I was still not getting pregnant. The fertility doctor was even getting discouraged. He started mentioning IVF. Great now I have another thing to learn about. But first, he wanted to start the shots.
The Infertility Shots
All right ladies let’s talk about these shots. I’m not sure who all is reading this but these shots are crazy. You have to take them at a specific time every single month or day or week according to the amount that the doctor needs to have in your system. I was on one shot a week. Let’s not even think about how much these shots cost. And of course, health insurance would not help at all with this even with the PCOS diagnosis. Becoming pregnant is not a human right according to the insurance company.
Did you know having a child was an elective?